i need to be happy.

summer is almost over.

sad face.

wow. i think i have missed a lot these past few weeks.

i feel like the worst person ever, but at the same time i'm happy...not because of everything i missed mind you.
school is about to start and im scared. not only because its gonna be different than what im used to but also because im afraid it might change a lot of things.

maybe im just crazy.
i honestly feel like crying because i dont know what to do.
i feel guilty crying though, i know a friend who has it a lot worse right now and they manage to be strong.
that person is my hero.

So. Ive come to the conclusion that I am an extremely lazy person. 
I really need to work on doing something about this. I have so many things I need to get done before its too late. Im really worried that Im not gonna get everything done that I need to just because Ive been putting it off for so long.

I have also realized that i depend too much on other people..especially my mom. I hate this.
What bothers me even more is that i know all of this yet i still dont do anything to change it.
I still have yet to register for classes at JCCC. How pathetic is that?

Sometimes I really wonder how people stick around for me and they dont just give up on me.

I've been working a lot. It doesnt really leave much time to hang out with people.
Heres the new schedule:

Today -  6:30-close
Thursday - 9-8
Friday - 6:30-close
Saturday - 6:30-close
Sunday - 1-8
Monday - 4-8
Tuesday - OFF
Wednesday - 9:30-1:30
Thursday - 9-4
Friday - O.A.R. Concert
Saturday - 12:30-close
Sunday - OFF
Monday - 9-8
Tuesday - OFF
Wednesday - 12-5
Thursday - 9-8

anyways. things are good other than all that.

summer is coming to an end and it makes me sad.

so im pretty sure theres a prostitute that lives in my neighborhood.
i wonder how business is doing...